A Night with The Devil...

     So I've spent the last 5 hours installing a few of my favorite VSTi's and their accompanying MEGA HUGE
libraries.  It's too bad I can't drop several grand on some nice synthesizers, drum machines, and various effect
racks.  I lost my main hard-drive almost a year ago and it had all my shit installed on it and I just never felt like
fully re-installing it all until recently. So i'm just sitting here at 1am eating watermelon and watching progress
bars throughout the night.. joy!




     I'd really like to put into action some of the many ideas I have written down over the past year.  I've just
been... taking notes I guess on what makes youtube interesting and would could make youtube even more
interesting... at least in my own eyes and regarding my own channel.

     Ya know people say "oh it's not as much as you think" when it comes to being a partner and their revenue
they obtain from it but see there's this guy I've been subscribed to for well over a year and I couldn't even tell
you how I stumbled upon his channel but this guy is Canadian and he has a big fucking farm and he basically
just explains how to fix shit, fixes up old cars and play demolition with em... and other random hi-jinx.
Anyway, the point of it is he gets anywhere from about 15-30k views per video with an occasional 70,000
views.  He uploads anywhere from 7-12 videos a month give or take.  His videos literally have no production
values but get this... last year he made around $100,000 from youtube alone.

     This kind of information is very important for anyone looking to supplement their income with youtube
 partnership. I always considered myself a better thinker than "do-er". It's also important to know when
people are playing down the fact that they want that extra money... no fuckin matter what line of bullshit they
spout out.


     It's now 3am...


      So yeah... it takes about 2-3 hours to fully install Spectrasonics Omnisphere.. of course it is 50Gb.


     Ya know just sitting here or even while doing other things I always have these little epiphanies about life
 and myself or other people. They usually come too often for me to have the desire to constantly write them
 down in detail and I have forgotten many I'm sure.. but I'm also pretty sure my mind reminds me of them
 every time I come across the same old patterns in life that first brought on the little epiphanies to begin with.
       However since I am sitting in front ov the computer barfing up a blog...  I was stunned by the oddity of
 the question 'why' ... Why do I do what I do.. and why does it matter to me... or does it matter at all to me
or is it just some habit brought on by unknown elements within my environment... I guess the answer is much
 more obvious when whittled out and laid before the eyes but floating within the mind it seems like an endless
  paradoxical revelation and one not easily dismissed as random mental fodder.

      I think that perhaps my grasp of just how unyielding and short life really is, has always played a large role
 in my general makeup... but perhaps not enough in areas which could have proven... "beneficial" .  Doesn't it
 seem like death is... not even a concept that people consider.. let alone even try to solve.  I for one feel death
 is an injustice and complete bullshit.  I think people might even use the accepted inevitability of death as an
 excuse to avoid perhaps someday conquering it.  If over 2,000 years of recorded history can be shown for
 any example it should be to reflect apparent human being laziness.

     I think Rockstar should pull the censorship dildo out of their collective assholes.  Red Dead Redemption is
pretty cool and I enjoy the game... but FUCK the game could have been so much greater if they had not had
their balls taken from them.. perhaps after hot coffee.  The game could have been a masterpiece.  I will spare
myself (and anyone still reading) the long drawn out rant but in short, they can rate anything whatever rating
they fucking want I don't give a fuck... but the moment I get a mature rating (which means for adults... which
just so happens to be the core of modern gamers) and I cannot fuck, rape... or watch the gory details of
 skinning  my latest kill... which now that I think of it why the fuck can't I skin or scalp men and women in the
 game?!?!  ..and why would this even matter to me some might ask?  Well kids... it's called grown up choices
 and it's the purpose for instituting a moral system within the game itself... "but Devil it's just a game" some
 would say... "HAH!"  is what I would say to you just before I set your head on fire and laughed.
     
     We don't need sterilized depictions of the wild west because you're afraid of legal action from a bunch of
 bored overweight house wives probably going through "the change". The old west was a brutal existence
 where women, men and children were either raped or murdered in some fashion or another.... granted I can
 walk up to a woman and shoot her in the face... but then what? I can't skin or scalp her? bullshit.  Not to
 mention I can't seem to be able to do ANYTHING in the brothels... such as .. oh i dunno... FUCK?

   But seriously Rockstar grow some fucking balls.


Good Night.